I really need to dig into this whole no yelling thing. But they don’t sleep. And then work is just a bear right now. And we have no nanny. And it just feels as if there have been, and will be coming up, a ton of solo parent days\/nights.<\/p>\n
But holy smokes that look in her eyes.<\/p>\n
And all she asked that I do was not yell at her. To just speak kindly to her. About a cup of milk for God’s sake.<\/p>\n
I’ve lost all patience for the world. All restraint to jump from zero to a thousand. But I won’t forget that look in her eyes. And hopefully it will slow me down. Hopefully it will stop me.<\/p>\n
Because I don’t want to see it again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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