I’m in a bad place.<\/p>\n
Ian used to tell me all of the time how I’d get stuck in ruts, and it was my job as a leader in the company to get out, and help move people forward. But I’m in one of those ruts where it just feels like it’s too hard to do.<\/p>\n
It’s really coming from every direction too.<\/p>\n
Luka tells me he doesn’t want me. He doesn’t like me. He only likes his mom. (Amelia does the opposite to Micky. It’s just purely mean).<\/p>\n
My dad busted his tooth, and I found out because I’m on a WhatsApp group with a bunch of students working on a project he and I are brainstorming together. If I weren’t on that group, then I’d never have found out.<\/p>\n
The family is sick. I’m allergic to the backyard for the next month until all of this pollen goes away.<\/p>\n
I’ve lost 40% capacity on the PM side at work, and\u00c2\u00a0that’s just plain hard. There’s a bunch of other stuff here too, but I’ll publish those another day.<\/p>\n
I don’t know where to win. I don’t know where the next win is coming from. And most of all, and actually scariest of all, I don’t know if it will be enough. But damn do I need a win right now \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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