I feel like I’ve started many blog posts these last few months, and published none.<\/p>\n
The truth is hard to write about. It exposes people who I have no intention of hurting. And yet, my inability to both write and say some of these things may have been what led me to where I ended up.<\/p>\n
It feels like a one-sided attack. What I want it to be is a conversation. But how is that possible in this format?<\/p>\n
The more I process it though, the more it feels like a plea for help. A plea to change. Why couldn’t we move faster? Smarter? With more empowerment? With more trust?<\/p>\n
I knew leaving TokBox was going to be tough in the moment, but I’m also now realizing how much what we had built there had weighed me down. Of course I was part of the problem. I built the problem. (I built some good things too, don’t get me wrong).<\/p>\n
And so I’ve been silent because the truth is too hard.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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